Philosopher's Pen

I have been through a lot untold Life's heat and cold I have made it to this old From whence I stand So I understand That it is not the making of any hand That you do not and may never understand  me. As much as l look, you I  do not and may never see Like the depth of the sea Blue and blinding deep We remain mysterious like sleep I understand if you never understand Even if the waters wash the story I keep writing to you on time's sand Circumlocuting  in a million ways Verbal monotony becoming the songs of my days I still will understand if you never understand 

A mistake he may have been A coital incident that could have been corrected by proper contraception  Wakefull realization made him think So he longed for a restful sleep But the night was not here Yet the day was more terrifying The hunger of the people he loved, No word of gratitude, Just insatiable needs that never seemed to end, Sacrifices not seen, Tears not told of Sweat upon the black brow Sweat of unapreciated toil Stuck reminder that he is a child of Adam Living the harsh pronouncements of yore Carrying on waiting for twilight for the day to close Carrying on to the twilight to fall a sleep Sound sleep Like a baby not yet born

💕 💕  💕 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕            💕  Some time wish I  Forget I could, how much you I adore And my life live like wind with nothing to restrain  But like a beautiful song trapped in a flute The ache longs to be expressed overwhelmingly Like a river breaking it's shore, rage free Like life born, bear hope with no fear Like a heartfelt song, bring back life But here I am bound to feel so strongly What to call the feeling I should find in the future  But here I am to feel so strongly longing for reciprocity But here I am to feel so strongly yearning to awaken anything May be something mutual even if not as strong Awaken something wrong  A need to break from the norms that ensalve A need to hold, yield and say the anthikable without shame A need to give and receive that which is free but most precious A need that would last forever