MAN

May be it was love

I am sure it was not lust

Maybe it was this madness that pushes men

The love and want for things out of reach

I wanted her with all in me

It seemed like she loved the play

Watching me weaken for her

Watching me want her

I knew this but never wanted to stop

I wanted her more and more

More and more she had her fun

I wanted her not for pleasure

Not fame

Not for glory

I wanted a friend of her

Someone I could trust

A friend I could be weak before without fear

Someone who allowed me to be human

And not terrified to be one

But she wanted a man

Someone who could stand above like a cloud on a hot day

Who could rain on her storms and thunder when they disagreed

Someone who could subdue her

Make a humble

That is what she wanted

But that is all I never desired of me

Neither did I wish it for her

I wanted to be honest

Guided by the truth

Truth sweet

And truth that hurts

Only truth I could trust

Not some weak girl

Who bows to every word I speak

I saw how strong she was inside

But my greatest pain was her desire for someone who could break her

For that, she thought me weak

Someone less than the one she could stand by

But all my life

I knew that the strongest man is one who can carry truth

Is who can bear seeing the people around them grow stronger

But she believed otherwise

I needed someone who power would never change

And that is only by one who loves humans

I hoped she could see

A accept human of me

But something in me told me that I was looking the wrong way

I was hoping for too much in this present