I CAN'T GIVE UP

The sun is still bright

The cloud is still blue

Life is just the usual husstle and bustle

Averagely I am successful

Deep inside I want to give up

I want to give up living but death is no better deal

I want to give up work but laying about offers no comfort

I want to give up looking into your eyes

But being alone is not a sweet company either

I want to tell my friends that I am not okay

But not being okay is not okay so I have to be okay anyway

I want to give up being okay and cry but I can't

I want to give up but I can't 

Not because I don't want to give up but because I am scared of what it offers

Feeling trapped between norm and escape

I want to give up but I cant

I want to run away from my self but I can't

I look at who I wish to be

That is my only bonfire amid this pain

I want to give up

But deep inside I know I can't give up